Monday, July 25, 2016

The Prison Experience 7/24

It was the most casual display of historical torture I've seen, placed in the corner of the street with hardly any fancy renovations dictating it as a museum. Yet, the barred windows of the building stood tall and loomed over the walls that contained it so no one could question the purpose of this place. I've visited many museums before from the Holocaust Museum in D.C. and the Torture Museum in San Diego but nothing made my heart drop more than this simple display of what happened just nearly 40 years prior at the previous S-21 prison active during the Khmer Rouge retime. There were rooms with a couple of "beds" that really was just woven pieces of leather and iron cuffs and chains used for containing the victims. A splotched and blurred black and white photo what you could barely make out as a man body accompanied the bed on the wall. The bed and the photo, that was all that was in the room, as if they were never moved and just nearly 40 years prior, a victim was tortured and killed at the very spot you were standing. This was the first thing I saw in this prison, but it was not the last and most definitely not the most impactful.
There were about 3 things that set this apart from any other displays of torture I've seen.
1. The giant board of rules
Translated into English, this was a huge board that stood in the middle of the field facing the building full of written rules mostly about obeying the regime, answering interrogation quickly, and one that did not allow you to cry when receiving electric lashes. A simple display, but it made me shudder as I imagined these prisoners seeing this board every day. You can see several images of torture, but these rules showed what led to it, and it really isn't much.
2. The gallows
The gallows was a giant wooden structure that resembled the structure I which people were hanged for execution back in the somewhat old days. There were three large clay plots underneath the beam of the structure and a clay sculpture of a terrified man with his hands tied behind his back next to it. These gallows were in the middle of the prison in the fields where it could be visible from all areas. It had metal hoops underneath the beam for rope to be pulled through. This structure was originally used during PE for the high school. It was turned into a torture device that consisted of hanging victims upside down until they lose consciousness and dumping them into the pots full of dirty water and fecal matter. In broad daylight, everything was clear and I was able to visualize a little too well the torturing of an unfortunate victim right before my eyes every time I saw the structure while walking through the buildings.
3. The individual cells
Absolutely the most chilling thing I've experienced. There were rooms in a building encased in barbed wire that showed the individual cells prisoners were kept in. It was used to prevent desperate prisoners from committing suicide. They were small, no longer than maybe 5ft long and 2 or 3 feet wide, and made up of brick or wood. There were no lights and I'm barely able to squeeze through the entrance of each cell. In some, I saw red markings on the floor or walls that seemed like it could've been dried blood. I walked through the small rooms with maybe 10 cells cramped in each room and I imagined the prisoner sitting there in shackles just nearly 40 years ago. Most of the things were untouched. I walked upstairs to the wooden cells and I found myself alone and scared to even walk through the wooden cells. These were more cramped than the brick and doors were open for me to enter through but all it seems to lead to after a short while was a door to another prison. Something about the way that the display of the cells was placed made it seem like it was endless. I got so many chills I didn't even know I could received as I walked through them alone.

My experience here made my heart grow for the people of the land and their genocide unknown to many across the world. My conversation with a bank teller showed that some people do not know where Cambodia is located or how to spell it. I might even go as far to say that he did not know that it was s country. Nearly 40 years ago was what ran constant through my mind as I came to the understanding of the raise that history merely repeats itself. There is truly nothing new under the sun. It's a shame that this prison doesn't get as nearly as many visitors as it should. Instead, people go to Cambodia to visit a grand temple. This was a chilling and powerful experience that makes me question whether or not humanity as a whole is actually able to grow toward peace.

Nicole

Sunday, July 24, 2016

Sensok - July 24th, 2016

Hey everybody, 

Just wanted to update y'all, we've safely landed in Phnom Penh and we're currently staying with Pastor Hung in Sensok. Today we attended Sunday service and supported the ministry through much prayer. By God's grace, two women were invited to receive Christ today. Although they had some doubts as to why Christ died for their sins, nonetheless, they decided by faith to believe. At the end of the service, we helped facilitate the distribution of over a hundred bags of rice to numerous families that inhabited near the church. There was much joy in the faces of the people here as they carried off free bags of rice back to their homes. 

Afterwards, we visited the S-21 torture camp (a notorious landmark of the Khmer Rouge regime) where we toured and learned of the history of the genocide that occurred in Cambodia. Though this was my 2nd time visiting the camp, I still experienced great feelings of sorrow and despair as I viewed the pictures of the innocent lives lost to such an inhumane regime. I was reminded just how sinful men can be. As mentioned in Romans 3:10-12, "As it is written: "There is no one righteous, not even one; there is no one who understands; there is no one who seeks God. All have turned away, they have together become worthless; there is no one who does good, not even one." Its very tragic that Cambodia's cultural identity has been eviscerated by the Pol Pot regime. 

If you can lift a couple prayers for our team, please pray for our hearts to remain focused on Christ. He is the source of our joy, may we not be disheartened from the things we saw and experienced today. Pray that this would motivate us to love on those around us with desperation!

Thanks,

Jerry

Day 1 - 7/24/16

Hey everyone, we all made to Cambodia safe and sound around 11p on Saturday 23, 2016. Pastor Hung, his son Daniel, and a brother Da came to pick us up yesterday. Well the travel started from LAX to Seoul to Cambodia went smooth. Though we are exhausted, we praise the Lord for the safe travels. But thank you for the prayers for the journey ahead.

Thus far we have enjoy understanding the ministry in Phnom Penh as a whole picture that God alone uses people as a vessel to draw closer to Him. The story of Pastor Hung and Co Trang (his wife) has cultivated our thoughts on how to view mission but also realized that God has place TLC to invest into the vision God has provided. Their ministry focus the people and the future building of the children. I have come to realize that  mission is to GO into places to magnify God’s name. The singular purpose is sending God’s people into a place of brokenness and hardship to transform lives through the Gospel. Going on mission is about being a blessing to a blessing towards people who are willing to give up their rights and who are willing to lose things to bless people. The meaning to get out by risking everything for the sake of others and to knowingly that all things God works for the good of those who love him, who has been called according to his purpose. To attempt great things for God, which shows God’s promises to be fulfilled.

Today’s high points

Through the message from Pastor Hung and Co Trang (Spoke in Khmer and Vietnamese) about the Parable of the Workers in the Vineyard – Matthew 2
- Thus, we aren’t better than one another (the first shall be last and the last shall be first)
- We don’t receive what we think we deserve (through our own effort or works) but Christ has given us generously through his grace and love 

Praise God for the message and those who heard during the message, that two local ladies including a young boy invited Christ into their lives even though they still struggle to understand about being redeem and what Christ died on the cross
- Through your financial support over 100 bags of rice were given to 100 families in Sensok 1 
- Allows the concept of being a blessing to another blessing towards the family

Visitation to S21 (Khmer Rouge Concentration Camp) 
- We explore the journey of the historic Khmer Rouge. 
- Understand the Cambodian people lose their identity and culture through the massacre.
- We all learned how to appreciate the lives with hearts of compassion and empathy

Healthy blessings, 
Jeremiah 





Saturday, July 23, 2016

Layover in South Korea

Enjoying our BANANANAAAAAA MILK!! :D

2-3 hours until Cambodia!

Friday, July 22, 2016

Wednesday, July 20, 2016

Cambodia Mission Sendoff 2016


Soli deo gloria! We are gracious for the journey ahead in Cambodia as God has provided our team the opportunity to GO! What lies ahead of the two-week short-term mission trip? God's name will be HALLOWED, His kingdom will COME, His will be DONE on earth as it is in heaven. We officially have one day left from Thursday before our departure to Cambodia. If you noticed our faces, we are all joyous and thrilled for what lies ahead by trusting God's sovereignty and the uncertain surprises!

To everyone who attended the mission sendoff, we thank you you for supporting all of us. Whether the gift of finances or the power of prayer, we know God has cultivated a heart to invest each individual to GO! As Paul said in Philippians 1:3-5, "I THANK my God in all my remembrance of you, always in every prayer of mine for you all making my prayer with joy, because of your PARTNERSHIP in the gospel from the first day until now. And I am sure of this, that he (God) who began a good work in you will bring it to COMPLETION at the day of Jesus Christ." Without you, Cambodia wouldn't happen! So thank you!

Prayer request:
- Pray for our team to be faithful by obeying God's will like Moses prayed for the Israelites as we are prayerful for the people of Cambodia.
- Pray for endurance and steadfastness when we get distracted, tired, and overwhelmed, that we seek God for strength in order to illuminate Christ. Whatever happens, conduct ourselves in a manner worthy of the gospel of Christ.
- Pray for our team to give up our rights (pride and selfish ambitions) for lost souls and lives in Cambodia because it is His kingdom work we're doing in love. Hallowed be His name, His kingdom come, His will be done, not ours.

Healthy blessings,
Jeremiah


Photo credit: Yen Dahl

Sunday, July 10, 2016

CAMBODIA 2016

Approximately 12 days until liftoff to Cambodia. Our official blog to keep you (our supporters and prayer warriors) updated with the mission. Keep us in your prayers for our team to Cambodia! 

"Our Father in heaven, hallowed be your name. Your kingdom come, your will be done, on earth as it is in heaven." - Matthew 6:9-10

Healthy blessings, 
Jeremiah 
 

Monday, July 6, 2015

Post Mission Update, Reflection, Goals

Hi all,

I just wanted to take the time to thank each and every single one of you for your abundant love and support for allowing me to be a part of this year's missions in sharing the Gosepl in Sensok, Cambodia. I certainly had an amazing and blessed time teaching the children English, building a new playground, visiting the families in the nearby village, and hearing the remarkable testimonies of Pastor Hung and his wife Co Trang's ministry. 

As I am slowly adjusting to life back here in Southern California, I am constantly being reminded of what God is doing half a world away. Through these reminders, I am realizing just how much distractions are present in our first world nation (worldly possessions, career, money, etc). For some reason, I can't help but feel guilty when I seek to purchase things for myself and when materialistic ambitions arise. I believe that I am currently undergoing some spiritual warfare and Satan is placing doubts and worldly temptations in front of me to keep me away from God, so please continue to keep me in your prayers! It's not wrong to enjoy God's blessings but I believe there's a threshold to that enjoyment (to the point where it becomes an idol). As I have learned in Cambodia, idolatry is the root of many sins and I must make sure that I continue to reevaluate my intentions and walk with the Lord daily in order to stay attuned to his will for me. It has definitely been a bit harder acknowledging God's presence with all these distractions but I am encouraged to know that he will never fail me nor abandon me (Hebrews 13:5). Although I am weak... Christ has redeemed me and I pray he will continue to use me as a light to my family, friends, and co-workers. 

Coming back from Cambodia, I have been refreshed spiritually and God has placed some convictions in my heart to be faithful as a leader at AKPC. Although we are small in number, I believe God intends for our church to really persevere and develop character. Through suffering, we should continue to rely on Christ for strength. God desires for us to develop a strong foundation rooted in his word so that we may be able to bear fruit (not for ourselves but for him). Even though it may seem daunting and tough, I am determined to obey. I have learned that faith produces action but action without faith is nonsensical and ultimately destructive to the church. Thus, I know God is in control and I will not let my pride and feelings of inadequacy prevent him from moving our church. Please continue to pray for me as I go about my daily life here! 

With much love,

Jerry

 

TGC (The Gospel in Cambodia)


Chum reap suor, what a time to reflect on Cambodia! The time frame of returning back to Arizona has been 1 week. My body and mind is adjusting gradually but the Arizona heat is a doozy! I still think about the experience in Cambodia especially the gifts of blessings and struggles with my teammates and people. God is revealing himself to me daily and place a burden of a blessing to continuously pray for Cambodia, its people, and praying for my teammates as they are TOO adjusting to life and living radically for God.

 

Without God, the mission itself becomes impossible. I hope as the Spirit is leading me to share the running thoughts and revelations of this trip – may the Spirit who dwells in all of us, encourages you (the readers) to explore the challenges God has place you,, to prepare you spiritually and mentally, and to invest your precious time to consecrate for God's plans in state and out state missions. Whether the mission is short or long-term, amazingly, God has done the work, and we are his VESSELS and are called to be part of the GREAT COMMISSION. The victory of His work is and will be finish in His GLORIOUS name!

 

While I am meditating through the book of ACTS. The power of God is flourishing throughout wherever God sends the disciples and apostles. Through Peter's ministry, churches are established and expanding all over, while the torch is handed to Paul and the Gospel is progressing all over as he travels to various places. This faith is offering the hope of Jesus Christ to all humanity from the beginnings to Jerusalem to Rome and etc. The dynamic of Acts is growing and spreading the Gospel like a ripple effect/wildfire.

 

I start realizing the people in Acts are ordinary and decide to live boldly because they have the Holy Spirit and the resurrection of Christ revealing their purpose to share the Gospel. Confidence and boldness are two qualities they are gaining through Christ as their source of power. For myself, the experience of sharing the Gospel to the people was ineffective. Yet at times difficult because people's hearts are harden and stubborn to surrender change. Thankfully, I am glad God used our team by our actions and being the Christlikeness examples to live our faith by being a blessing to the people. If people are observing our actions, then, the evidence of God's presence will be a light to all the people in Cambodia and they will be known it is God's bidding!

 

I know the Gospel is being preach in Cambodia, in Vietnam, in America, and ALL nations. Time and patience is the key to open people's hearts. To LOVE people with empathy and relentlessly. But most importantly, I believe the church and the missionaries in Acts understand prayer was a huge part of sharing the Gospel because if prayer and preaching is not implement throughout the time of expansion, then the Gospel is literally dead. My meditating in Acts alone, God has place a gracious love and a heart of conviction to share the experiences to various people I meet daily and to plant the seeds for the Gospel to spurt out the ground. Just being able to witness how radical these disciples are with their faith to share and to understand they were chosen to be part of his plan to reach the world. He gives my brothers and sisters and I, the motivation, energy, and ability to get Gospel to the world. God is already victorious and we are victorious as well because of HIM. Thankfully we are saved in grace to give the same living hope to all the people we meet daily through the cross of Jesus Christ. Cambodia will know God, so please keep praying for all the men, women, and children. God is doing BIG things in Cambodia especially Love of Christ Church in Sen Sok 1!. God blessed everyone! 

 

- Jeremiah 

Friday, July 3, 2015

Goals

Hello for a second time from Peiran!  I wonder if people are still reading these… hopefully it is still encouraging and eye opening to those who are reading.  I write with no other purpose than to share what God has laid on my heart and I can only hope that it speaks to yours as well.  Missions to me has become not only a way of sharing our faith with new believers but also encouraging our brothers and sisters abroad and bridging the gap between churches across the globe much like Paul did in his missionary work. We can teach each other so much and learn from each other as well. 

But anyways, goals. So before we left for missions Pastor Tony had encouraged us to write down a goal that we would aim for.  We could try to remember all the kids names or serve our team in getting water for people every time or try to connect with the family… things like that.  My goal for myself was to make a connection with at least 3 of the local teachers so that I could continue to encourage them and support them even after I come home.  Especially because they will be the ones working with the children year round and making an even bigger impact, I really wanted to be there for them in that way.  But even as I penned that thought I was doubting in my heart.  I paused slightly after writing it out. How was this supposed to happen? I have no ability to communicate with them.  At most we would probably smile.  How will they see that I want to be there for them? How will they see my heart? And even when I am there I will be teaching the children… how will I spend time with the teachers? 

But God knows what He wants and what He lays on our hearts is always achievable.  Nothing is impossible with Him. Within the first day I found that one of the girls I shared a room with, also one of the pastor's daughters, was dreaming of being a teacher.  And her English was great! She even had the dream of going to college to learn more so she could teach more to these children.  What a beautiful and clear vision for her future.  It's funny because now that I think back she was the one I sat next to when they picked us up from the airport and the first one to truly try befriending me.  I appreciated that so much and was drawn to her right away. This is us on the first day! 

So in my heart during the first week I was really trying to find time to sit with her more but somehow our schedules did not always end up working out well. She is still in high school and had to go to class in the morning and I was so tired every night I ended up knocking out by 10.  That is still something that I wish I had been less selfish about. I wish I had sacrificed my sleep to talk to her more and if God allows for a next time I will definitely make that more of a priority. 

During the first week I also found out that one of my students was actually a teacher as well.  But she was young and was allowed to take advantage of the two weeks to learn for herself as well. My happiest moments with her, when we really felt a deeper connection, was most likely beach day. On the ride there she sat with me and Thia and fell asleep to me tapping her shoulder and humming worship songs. Then while at the beach I taught her a little bit of swimming and she was brave enough to try floating on her back by herself! It was so easy to get drawn in by the younger kids while teaching because they were never shy and always asked to be held or picked up or swung around but with Truc I honestly had to make more of a conscious effort to sit by her and encourage her more.  But to me it appeared that she was really used to taking care of the younger ones but it had been a while since she had been cared for and loved on and that is what drew me to her. 
                 

And as one week ended and our second week started and I was already at 2 out of 3. But God decided to overflow my cup.  The two assistant teachers we had also started to open up (one of them is now my girlfriend, Hau, on the left).  Despite their limited English and thanks to a few translations I found out that Em/Esther (on the right), who is now my younger sister, was apparently drawn to me from the beginning.  
                    

I had no idea because she had made no indication of it but this brought tears to my eyes.  My God was paving the way from the start, even before I met these girls. From the very beginning when the head pastor of TLC came to one of our group meetings and his wife shared about our need to be concerned for the teachers just as much as the students my heart was moved.  From the start God already planted the dream in my heart and of course He would bring it to fruition.  I did not need to know Vietnamese or Khmer and they did not need to know English.  I did not need to do anything but be present and obedient and God was going to use me as He willed. 

This is something I have continuously heard and learned and am slowly allowing to seep in.  God does not call me to be perfect and He does not require me to fix myself because I cannot. I am already a daughter of God and He has already planned the good works I am called to do and all I need to do is obey.  I just need to listen and obey.  One of the most simple to do yet simultaneously difficult to do.  May God complete the good work He has started in me and may I remember this lesson of obedience.  

For you as a supporter please continue to pray for these teachers/ future teachers. So many of them have difficult home situations.  Despite the smiles they wear on their faces there is so much brokenness in their lives and sometimes even opposition from family members to continue teaching at this school, yet they continue.  From them I have learned so much about faithfulness and obedience.  It is a day by day, step by step action.  My heart and prayers go out to them tonight.